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Real/ Make believe
Where to draw the line?

"Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what's on your mind"
- Schuyler Fisk and Joshua Radin, Paperweight

Once again.

Wordpress beckons, but how? ):
Okay, do your work! D:

Regardless

Mark 6:30-31
The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest."

(Reference: Wednesday, 19 May 2010)
The best words to start the morning. It finally became clear to me that this is my season of rest. In all areas of my life - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually.

So, this is what You meant. How should have been more alert/ aware. I think a part of me has been so used to doing and giving that it was quite hard for me to believe that what God asked me to do was to rest. Also, I didn't exactly grasp the aspect of how to rest. But this is good (: Better late than never. I think it's going to be exciting! :3

"I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue
And I wanna be where You are"
- Hillsong, Came To My Rescue

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part"
- John Mayer, Dreaming With A Broken Heart

Not only is it lonely and broken. It hurts like a bitch. Rather reluctant to go about this weekend and proceed with the new week, which doesn't seem rather new considering it's a rather monotonous lifestyle. It feels like after everyday, a part of me dies down.

God, please re-ignite me.
"Look in the smallest places."

And... yes. Sigh.
Shit. I feel so dumb.

I have no ambition, no drive, no energy, no life, no love, no feelings, no thoughts, no words to say. Nothing left. A broken heart is an open heart.

Then I remember the ring Power Ranger sent over - "Hope".

I think it's ironic how I still so strongly believe in genuine feelings, honesty and trust being poured into every relationship established considering that I'm in a course that promotes on-the-surface, touch-and-go relationships that probably won't go very far or even run very deep. People do the fast connection to "protect themselves" from being "put out there" which may in turn get you hurt and with the mentality that "you can't please everyone". Sounds silly? Is this dumb? I don't know.

One thing I'm sure of is that I love (or try to with my best capabilities) because He first loved me. And love may not build back the same amount of trust, but love gives second chances.

Change is a process that starts from the first step taken.

The future is unknown and scary, yet so full of possibilities and hope.

What's your perspective? What do you choose to see?

Everything in life is a choice. What you want to do or how you choose to react or what you want to take in.

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Oh really? -wiggles eyebrows-
Today, I'm silly. Don't know why either but okay! :3

It doesn't seem to beat at all anymore. I don't seem to be able to feel anymore. I don't seem to know how to breathe anymore. Let's stop this all.

Trust is fragile. Once broken, it's considered sold.
Don't be a stupid jackass like me. Don't be me.
All I find before me are reasons why you should never befriend someone like me. I really don't deserve anything or anyone or probably everything I have. What right do I have to deserve them in the first place?

Want to be disappear right now.

Mark 6:30-31
The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest."

God, I really need You now.

100%

I feel terrible knowing that I didn't and wasn't able to give my best for what I did. I'm quite peeved about it and mad with myself. Grumpy day >:@ Plus stressed for the meeting with the Creative Director later ):

Sigh ):

In the best way I can try

Life is abstract. When you think you get it, you can go one round, be back at the same spot and realize, you didn't understand it at all. I guess, this is what makes life more interesting. Or, at least, the human mind is abstract. Life is meant to be simple. Just that we complicate everything when we involve our head and our hearts. Not that it's not meant to be like that. But through everything, I guess there will be an answer if you open your eyes wide enough.

So, what's in my head today?
Oh nothing much. Just a bunch of unanswered questions which I think will remain unanswered till the time is right.

"It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you"
- Corrinne May, Journey

Bittersweet insecurity

God, You hold my heart.