With heart

Okay. So before I get down to clearing the stuff that I need to clear. I'll take this time to clear out my thoughts.

Thailand has been amazing. The change of environment, the times when I get to learn more about people/ friends and their personalities and basically being inspired by God again. I admit that this trip probably didn't do much in my pursuit of knowing God from the basics again but it did teach me to learn to appreciate the little that I have and the things that He has blessed me with. I guess in summary, I've learnt that no matter how horribly irritating anyone may be, they still deserve another shot and that they too have their good points. I think I should learn to see and appreciate the better side of people more and stop thinking too much. Maybe this is where expectations come in. Like the saying, "Do unto others what you want them to do unto you" has played a significant role in my life. I somewhat expect people to treat me the way I treat them. But oh boy have I learnt that sometimes it doesn't work out that way.

This trip has also been amazing because I really think it was a trip that God has been preparing me for. In a sense that in the beginning of 2009, I would never dare imagine that I could go overseas with a bunch of friends. I have had dreams of things that really happened during the trip and to me, it was quite cool. To a large extent, I think that I've been so busy serving and doing things that I've forgotten what I've first learnt ever since the beginning of this journey with God. Maybe 2010 would be the year when He brings me through things to mould me, shape me and refine me. Whatever it may be, I just have to remember to live right now. I also think that I've never really been so carefree and happy for a long time running. Not that I've been absolutely plastic about things. Just that sometimes you can't I guess.

Made a couple of new friends this trip and got to know old ones better. The experience is amazing. Just when I was going to crash and burn from feeling alone I guess. I don't know why I felt that way too. Maybe cause I'm insecure. Maybe cause I couldn't change my outlook on things. Maybe cause I've failed to recognize the people that have been supporting me silently. But I've been greatly encouraged during this trip! (I realized that I've a lot to say.) I'm glad that it was I started 2010 with Thailand and I hope this journey will take exciting turns that I may go higher, stronger and better.

So, I guess if there was really one thing I had to thank God for, is that He's been showing me the basics of a relationship with Him by bringing me back to Him through friends and showing me what and who to love. Who knows, maybe I'll be called to be a Pastor/ Evangelist to Thailand! (:

There! Done! Okay. Start being busy! Bzzzt!