With heart

I realized it's actually quite scary when I thought of how many things have happened during the past 2 1/2 years. How much I think I've grown as a Christian and how much I'm serving. It only occurred to me recently because my friends were talking about how they aren't really doing anything with now (since it's the holidays) and what they intend to do when they grow up. And when it's usually my turn to answer these question, I would be like, "I want to be a wedding planner when I grow up." As much as I really strongly believe that God has called me towards the youth and probably towards pastoring/ evangelism but it seems like I'm too afraid to admit it? I mean, it's not really because I'm afraid that they will mock me or something but like, it seems over-ambitious sometimes? I don't know. It's just scary :/