I'm not the person anyone should look up to. I don't deserve the title of being a leader. I've allowed myself to bend and break. Don't feel like going for Youth tmr. You can't have the best of both worlds. I want to be on God's side. But it's increasingly obvious that I'm falling on the other side? What's wrong with me? Sigh. Actually, I know why. Cause my heart has grown cold towards God. So many things have appeared over this period of time, I've been so busy. It's no excuse but I don't know. I've been so self-indulgent. Yet the only thing I can do in this busy season is to worship you with my lips and pray that I will be able to worship you with my life. To love You with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.
"Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never-ending, Your glory goes beyond all praise
And the cry of my heart is to bring Your praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out."
- Hillsong, From The Inside Out
I think what I've been listening to has taken over my mind too. You know what to do Jess.
Btw, I'm sorry for the overwhelming emotionally unstable posts recently. I just need to express what's running through my mind and what's beating through my heart.
ultravioletsunshine.tumblr is not exactly the appropriate place to do that.
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