With heart

I feel crummy. Think if I could give up being me, I would have done that a long time ago.

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace"
- Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

I tried fighting off this feeling of isolation/ wanting to be withdrawn. I did the best I could. But it came back again. Disappointing? I know. I'm disappointed with myself too. I kind of just want to help others. It makes me feel happier to know that they are happy. Do you know that feeling? Aside from that, I want to get out of my head. Back to Snow Patrol, Signal Fire. I need one of those super hugs that tell you you're not fighting this alone. I think, all I can and am doing now is to desperately cling on.

Side note 1: I hate Chinese New Year Songs. Really.
Side note 2: There are many visible stars in the night sky tonight. Looked rather beautiful.
Side note 3: MarComm is dead done and over.

Hm, random much.