With heart

Take everything in its stride and look to Christ.

It'll be fine.

(:

"I don't know how you do what you do"
- Lonestar, Lonely Grill - Amazed

Yesterday I allowed what was going on to set in. It was not that tough because I've decided to commit the whole thing and friendship to Christ. I'm glad that He allowed me to see things from a new perspective. A perspective that is more positive (:

Last night, God spoke to me in a dream about how I've been holding onto things of the world. I guess it convicted me. In the dream, I was living in a rather badly furnished HDB. It had old tiles with cracks in them, my family have to share rooms and we didn't even have a proper bed to sleep in. Anyway, the first time the house caught fire, I immediately dashed out of the house. No one was hurt. Then it happened the second time. But this time, I ran in and grabbed not only the important documents but the stuff that I liked (sounds very bimbotic but I grabbed like my bracelets and clothes and stuff like that). Everyone was asking me to get out but I told them that these were the things that I had to get. The fire kind of got too big and I realized I was stuck in the room. I didn't really understand the dream so I asked God for help. And He told me that the fire came to consume everything yet I treasured all these worldly items instead of my life. But to Him, what's important is on the inside of me. It's not the outer appearance, not the things I do. But He values my heart and my life. He also told me to consciously remember not to run back into the burning house to grab these things that I considered as treasures when they are of no importance to Him. He promised to give us treasures in heaven and so He told me to keep my eyes fixed upon Him and don't fear what people say. Don't get worried I won't get my rewards. Don't look around and get jealous of the worldly treasures people have stored up around them but know that God is the giver of all good things! So yeah! I would say I had a rather fruitful night (:

Anyway, I semi can't wait for Chinese New Year to come! Seems like there will more interesting activites that will light up my life (Haha) during that season. Maybe aside from the fact that I've to study for MedSoc Exam. Haha. Can't wait for semester to be over! Can't wait for time to fly by faster! And it hit me, I'll be 19 this year. And still without a license. I miss Muffy ):

Okay. I feel like a cloud and I need to shower and head down to school! Meow! (:

Oh! Lastly, thanks to everyone who have been around during this emo period of mine (: I really really really do appreciate everything you guys do and just being around (: I think things may get better! :D I just have to remain focused and persevere! So yeah! Thanks! (:

Meow!